When we talk about mental illness in the magical community, we usually talk about how to tell when someone has left the boundaries of religious experience and wandered over into pure hallucinations. When we talk about it at all, which is rare.
This blog has nothing to do with that.What I want to talk about are a couple of other disorders that can affect your practice, and how to work around them.
Depression and anxiety are probably the most common forms of mental illness, but you’ll rarely encounter any discussion of them in books on the craft. That’s a big damned shame, really, because it’s hard to manifest your hopes and dreams when the back of your mind is running over terrible things you said by accident, or all the ways that things have gone wrong in your life and will continue to go wrong.
This probably accounts for a lot of people who try the craft and decide it’s bogus. Focus, as any witchcraft 101 book can tell you, is key. They also tell you about the importance of staying positive, but usually offer no guidance for that part of the journey. I know multiple depressives who have added this to their list of mid-spiral grievances.
I grew up in one of those families where no one knew how to regulate their mood, so I didn’t learn to regulate mine until adulthood. Add to that the anxiety disorder I inherited that runs through my family like blue eyes, and I had some pretty serious disadvantages when I came to the craft.
I learned that sometimes I felt calmer than others, and I tried to avoid casting any spells if I was anxious, since my desires would shift with my mood. I also noticed that if I wasn’t calm it would be very hard to focus. Worse, once I was done with the ritual, I worried about the results, and it seemed to hold me back.
Eventually, I learned how to make magic work for me. Here’s everything I wish I’d known sooner.
- Know yourself. If you’re in a terrible mood and you know it will pass, consider working when you feel better. If you have a sincere need now, do something that you know will alter your mood for the better before you work. For some people, upbeat television shows or music will bring enough of a turnaround to complete the work. Figure out what flips that switch for you, even if it’s a short-term shift.
- Meditate. You may have a harder time focusing on your goals than other practitioners, depending on how much mental traffic you’re currently dealing with. A strong meditation practice will strengthen your ability to tune out the nonsense. Which, honestly, is probably just a good idea in general. The next time your brain helpfully offers you a litany of every time you’ve ever looked stupid, you can tell it to stfu.
- Affirmate. Daily. When I first heard about affirmations, I laughed at all the people lying to themselves. I gave a couple of canned affirmations a half-hearted shot, was unmoved by them, and then didn’t try again for almost a decade. Oh, the time I missed. Affirmations are essentially spells we cast with only our brains. They can also shift your mood in a pretty powerful way, and sometimes I use them before rituals if I need to change my head space. Write your own, they’ll resonate better. All you need to do is decide your intention, keep it positive, and phrase it as though what you want is already happening. For example, you may choose “I attract wealth in all its forms” or “I am enjoying my happy life.” To make them effective, remember a time when you actually felt like money was rolling your way, or when life was happy. Hang onto those feelings and really feel what you are saying. Then repeat until you believe. Literally. I use prayer beads to help me count.
- Remember that witches do what they have to do. Witchcraft isn’t for cowards. Don’t be afraid to go to your doctor and ask for help, and if you need medication, take it. Your disorder is rooted in one of your organs (your brain) not functioning optimally. If you need medical assistance to live your best life, get it. You wouldn’t tell someone with asthma to just breathe deeply, or someone with a broken leg to walk it off. Fun fact: when I started taking medication, my magic practice took off. It wasn’t ineffective before, but I could feel how much smoother my work was. My manifestations were bigger and better. I seriously have no regrets.
I hope this helps someone. Everyone deserves to live their best life AND work their best magic.